The leaves are coming out on the trees, flowers are blooming, the garden is taking shape and the brief winter cold is over. I love seeing the earth come to life.
After spending much of my week trying to break a fever and overcome a sinuse infection I need the freshness of spring to lift my spirits and make me feel better.
Genesis 1:11 (NKJV)
“Then God said, ‘Let the earth sprout vegetation, plants yielding seed, and fruit trees on the earth bearing fruit after their kind with seed in them’; and it was so.”
God the creator of all things is the only one who can make spring happen.
Thank you Lord for spring and new life! Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more!
I know the seasons are changing because everything in my body is hurting. It is amazing how each little piece of the body plays such a big role in the overall well being of the individual. I am reminded daily that my ankle, foot, and hip are very important to the ability to get around. Let’s just say that I will not win any races for being the fastest mover.
The challenge is really trying to figure out if this pace is the best there is or if God will heal me of these inconvenient pains. I have been working on getting relief with the help of doctors but this is not showing results so far. I can be patient if I am given hope.
Just like in the Bible God gives us hope that we can be saved and he gave hope to the Israelite nation that they would get the Promised Land.
HOPE is Having Our Prospective Enlarged. You might notice that in times when you do not have hope you are looking at things only from the perspective that you can see and not looking at a bigger picture. Faith in God and His promises helps us look at a bigger picture. Prayer to God can open our minds to the bigger picture. If we live just to make it through today we might not have enough hope for our future to endure the pain and struggle.
I wrote about “living in the moment”. I believe that we need to live in the moment we are in and truly embrace it with the perspective that there is a future and a hope in front of that moment. We need to enjoy this life because it is short and keep pressing into God for His perspective so that we can endure the hard times.
If I think that suffering is all that will happen in my life and live only by the pain I feel then I will sink into depression and not want to move forward. That is the trap that has been set, but from God’s perspective this suffering is only for a season, no matter how long, and if I persevere through it embracing the good things that come I will win the race and finish the course. In perseverance I will influence others who struggle and set the captives free through the grace of God. This is a spiritual battle and must be won in the spirit.
For me the bigger perspective is handing down a legacy of love to the next generations. I look at my grandchildren and see that they need their elders to help guide them through this mixed up darkness that we live in. So my hope is that I can pass on courage and strength for them to follow God with all their hearts and meet me in eternity at the end of this life.
I know that many people are suffering with pain and illness. I pray today that each one who reads this will persevere through and see that God is in control right there with you. Ask God to show you more of His plan for you each day to give you encouragement to move forward. Find your HOPE and live in it.
Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.
As I drove up the ramp toward the interstate I focused on moving over to the far left lane. By the time I was successfully in the far left lane another two lanes entered to my left and I made my move one more lane over to end up in the right place for the upcoming exit of the three right lanes. This lane would end up being the far left lane of loop 12 which is the highway I wanted to be on.
Imagine now that you are me driving in what is a middle lane as I was. This lane can go to I-35 to the left or Loop 12 to the right, before the lane splits. As you approach this unique position on the road, a dark colored van on your right suddenly decides that it is a good idea to come into your lane while half of the van is still right next to you. You put on your brakes just enough to let this driver make the turn in front of you to go down I-35. This maneuver might be upsetting enough but it didn’t end the excitement. Because when you put on your brakes there is a small gap in front of you. Immediately you see across the double white triangle area to your left, a white Lexus SUV moving into a not so large gap in front of you to go down Loop 12. What these cars did to me I call the “X” maneuver and my car was just below the crossing point. Thank God there was no collision.
Anyone in this circumstance would be really living in the moment totally aware of what is going on and almost seeing things in slow motion. It is easy to live in the moment when you are in a crisis situation. As I prayed the day after this happened I heard “live in the moment” and I began to contemplate what that would mean for me and how that would change what I was doing. I immediately looked down at my phone and realized that I have become accustomed to living some days with eyes on my phone instead of eyes on the wonders around me. I also realized that sometimes I get too focused on what needs to be done and miss everything else.
So, I opened my eyes and mind and I went on Saturday errands and tried to notice the people around me and respond to them. I had a good conversation with Vanessa, the check out lady at Wal-Mart. I noticed the cars and people around me in the store and at the gas station. I noticed the beautiful colors of the grass and flowers blooming. My daughter and her family came over and I spent the whole time focused on them not concerned about chores that needed to be done. I thank God for challenging me to live in the moment and to make the most of each moment because we never know how many of them we will have in this life.
James 4:14 (NIV)
Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.
Would you join me in putting down your distractions and living life with those around you? Take some time to thank God for all you have. I will be back next week with more.
Breathing through my nose is difficult lately because my nasal passages are swollen. Like a lot of people I do not enjoy breathing through my mouth. It dries my mouth out and just feels awful. I think we could all agree that it is necessary to breathe in order to continue living.
I am glad that God gave us an alternate way to breathe when we are experiencing difficulty with the natural way of breathing. Have you ever noticed that breathing is something that is taken for granted? I don’t actually think about how important it is to my existence until it becomes difficult to do. Without breathing the cells in our bodies would not get the oxygen that they require to live and if they are deprived for too long they will die and when they die we die….
I sometimes wonder why we don’t appreciate things like breathing until we experience problems. For some people they treat God like I treat breathing. I know it is important but I do not focus on it unless there is a problem. In life it is easy to get caught up in the good stuff and forget “Who” gave it to us. It sometimes becomes easy to forget to say “Thank you” to God for all that He has done to make the good times. Oh boy, but when the bad stuff happens we are all over it in trying to find out what went wrong.
Is it because we think we don’t need God in the good times? Or is it because as long as things are smooth we forget? I actually think there are probably many answers to that question. Whatever the reason I think it is time to remember God in the good times and in the bad times.
So today I say “Thank God” for all that He has done for me.
- For answered prayers (there have been many)
- For family (husband, kids, grandkids, brothers, sisters etc..)
- For healing
- For taking me through the bad times and not leaving me in them
- For holding my hand through all the scary times
- For helping me through the grieving process
- For letting me see life from a different perspective
- For memories of loved ones who have gone before us
- For the future and what it holds
- For many wonderful past experiences
Would you join me in thanking God? Try to think of all He has done for you. Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.
I did not publish a blog last week because I was in the midst of a sad occasion and many miles from my computer. We put my mother in law to rest on Monday. She is now peacefully in her eternal reward.
Her name is Ruth, which means “friend, companion”. She really lived up to that name. When I think about her my main memories are about the kindness that she showed toward me from the first day that I met her. As a child and young adult I struggled with one on one conversation with those older than me, but she made conversing easy.
Ruth was friendly, loving, kind, interested in the lives of others and would do what she could to help those in need. One of my favorite things about her was that she was down to earth without frills, which made her all the more loveable and easy to talk to. She was hard working and always had some project going, usually quilts. She never let anyone who came to her home leave hungry, and she was a great cook. She was strong in character and resolve. I never had to worry about my children misbehaving at her house because she was quick to correct their bad behavior and when she did they remembered and were better the next time.
The rod and reproof give wisdom, But a child who gets his own way brings shame to his mother.
She helped me tremendously during the brief sickness and death of both of my parents within two years of each other. When she became my children’s only living grandparent she took on that role with honor and loved them even more. As my children grew older they got closer to her and never missed the opportunity to visit her even if it was just for a few minutes. She loved those visits. Later as parents themselves, they would bring the great grandchildren to her so they could experience the wonder that was “Grandma Palmer”.
I hope that I can be as kind and accepting and loving as she was as I attempt to be Grandma to my six grandchildren. It was a rare occasion to see her without that beaming smile on her face.
If I could say one last thing to her I would say “Ruth you will be missed here on earth by many and we look forward to reuniting with you someday in heaven.”
God gave me a wonderful mother-in-law and sometimes it takes the passing of a wonderful person like her to remind us that we should truly appreciate our parents, grandparents and other relatives while they are still with us so we don’t regret what we did not think to say while they were alive.
Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.
Over the years I have been very good at overdoing. I used to walk very fast, which was based on my childhood of being short and trying to keep up with those with longer legs. I found the fast pace helped me get more accomplished and that has been important to me. I always want to feel like I am getting everything done that has been given to me to do. At work I am usually in fast mode working diligently and as quickly as possible.
With that in mind I guess I walked a little too fast this past week which caused an old injury on the right side of my body to rear its ugly head. Needless to say I am working hard on persevering through the pain. Somehow I need to figure out a way to complete all my tasks and not walk too fast.
James 1:2-5 (NKJV)
2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.
So as I write this blog I am asking for you to stand with me in seeking wisdom to navigate my way through this challenge. I am working on that “counting it all joy” portion of the scripture. I believe it is all about attitude and I trust God to get me through this mess and not leave me in it. In the mean time I will be waiting on the Lord to show me the best way to proceed and avoid further injury.
Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.
After years of struggle with ankle and foot pain my daughter convinced me to try again to find a doctor who could help. She gave me a list of possible doctors and I chose one that looked promising. That call resulted in a referral to another more specialized doctor with whom I made the appointment. After the first appointment I bought and wore a brace, for around two weeks but it caused more pain so I called the doctor back and we moved on to an MRI. On Thursday I got the results and the decision was made to put me into boot for 30 days and pray that the immobilization and rest would heal the problems.
The boot comes with its own problems. It basically is a platform that you walk on which makes one leg longer than the other and can make you unbalanced. It also rocks as you move, if you push your heal down your toes will rock up and if you put your toes down you heal rocks up. This keeps you ankle from bending and allows your foot to rest while allowing you to walk. To combat the uneven walking I purchased an “evenup” sole to put under my other shoe. This helps to compensate and keep me more even and less likely to cause back, hip and knee problems.
Walking with the boot is a challenge. Going up steps it feels like it weighs a ton. Walking on uneven surfaces can cause your knee to go backwards and makes it feel like you could fall over. This unsteadiness reminds me of life in general. Sometimes I am unsure of myself and it feels like I am rocking back and forth on uneven ground as I walk really slow hoping not to fall. Sometimes my confidence is high and I feel that I am on solid flat ground where I go safely at a faster pace. However, God does not always give me a flat concrete path to walk on. Sometimes He gives me the rocky road with a rocking boot, just to see what I will do. Maybe it is to test me to see what I have learned from life and His word.
Having this boot has slowed me down more than the pain in my ankle did before. But going slow is not always a bad thing. It helps me to re-evaluate what I am doing and try to minimize my steps by thinking ahead more and making fewer trips. It also helps me to depend on the kindness of others which is important. Sometimes accepting help is more important that the pride of doing it yourself. It allows me to be on the other side of this scripture:
Acts 20:35 (NASB)
In everything I showed you that by working hard in this manner you must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, that He Himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’”
By graciously receiving what others give to me I am allowing them to be blessed. This is a hard lesson to learn, but I am working on it. Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.