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What is a Weed?

IMG_0665Have you ever had weeds in your lawn and gone to the store to get something to kill or remove them? You go down the aisles and find that there are many dangerous chemicals that can promise those weeds will never come back.  You might read the labels and chose the one that seems like it has the most potent effect on the problem or the one that seems it has the most natural ingredients.

In your mind you believe the weed to be the problem and you seek a solution. Did you know the weed may not be the problem? The problem could be that the soil is missing something. That so called “weed” could be God’s solution to the weakness in the soil. Our wonderful, all knowing God had a plan for sick soil. He caused certain plants to grow when the soil is missing something to replenish and heal it. However when we kill some of the plants that seem to be weeds we destroy the life giving healing that God set out for the ground.

So you see, a weed is in the eye of the beholder. Some so-called weeds have pretty flowers and some are prickly and cause pain, but they all have a purpose or God would not have created them. On a spiritual level we see weeds growing in our lives and maybe we spew poison on them trying to kill them off. We may try to hide them from others by suppressing them but they are still there. Until we take a deeper look to see what is causing this weed to grow we will not be able to remove them from our lives.

What could a weed be in my life? It could be suppressed anger or disappointment or many other things. No matter what the weed is if we don’t try to figure out where it started and learn what we are missing that caused it to grow we will never be healed. The weed can turn into a blessing, because it is a cry for help but left unchecked it can cause more problems.

For example maybe the weed grows when there is pride. A proud person does not want to be seen with a weed. It causes embarrassment of not being perfect which smacks pride in the face if the weed is allowed to be seen by the people around us. It causes humility, which softens our hearts and can cause us to grow into a more compassionate person.  A real problem happens if the proud person hides the weed, which only causes the weed to grow bigger and bigger until it becomes a major embarrassment.

So next time you see a weed, don’t look at the weed, look deeper and try to figure out what caused it. Have compassion and mercy on people whose weeds are showing. Help them work through and grow and learn from the experience. I hope you enjoy the coming week and praise God for the weeds that help us heal and grow.

A Long Commitment

IMG_1605I am in the midst of experiencing pain, excitement and down time. After years of problems with my foot and months of trying everything short of surgery I was told that surgery was my only option left to relieve the pain. So, somewhat reluctantly, I got on board and started this process for healing. My surgery was on Friday May 5th and I am at home for a while healing. I have a three sided hard cast with a soft top on for now and then I will wear the boot again and then slowly back to normal walking with physical therapy. I have been told that it could take up to a year before my foot feels normal.

This is a long commitment but not any longer than the pain that I have experienced in the past. The doctor says that what he did should give me relief from the pain after I heal from the surgery. I will be honest with you, I did not hear him say this because I was out of it but I trust my husband and what he has told me.

As with anything, preparation is the key to making it work. I thank God that my husband agreed we should buy a knee scooter two weeks before the surgery,  which enabled me to get used to it. It made a big difference. I am not going fast or far but I am able to go around the house as needed. I also had to prepare my mind in order to be able to make it through this time.

  • First I had to realize that the pain in my foot was getting worse, all my other options had been taken and I was willing to put up with temporary pain in order to achieve my goal of healing.
  • Then I had to decide that I believed the doctor could do what he had promised.
  • Then I had to spiritually embrace the surgery and possible long road to recovery knowing that GOD is in control and I can trust Him. (Believe me I had been praying for a miraculous recovery all the way up to surgery, but since that did not happen I moved forward. Just like I am now praying for a miraculously quick recovery.)

These decisions parallel my salvation:

  • First I had to decide that I wanted to be saved from my sins and gain eternal life no matter what that meant in my daily life.
    • John 3:16 (NASB)For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.
  • Next I had to decide that I believed Jesus could save me no matter what I had done or was doing.
    • Luke 1:37 (NASB)
      For nothing will be impossible with God.
  • And lastly I had to spiritually embrace the life changing decision, give up my control and know that I could handle anything that came my way because GOD is in control.
    • Philippians 4:13 (NASB)
      I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

I hope my journey is an encourgement to those who read this blog. My main purpose is to share real life experiences that could encourage others to continue in their faith. Enjoy your week and I will be back this weekend with more.

The “Over Do”


Over the years I have been very good at overdoing. I used to walk very fast, which was based on my childhood of being short and trying to keep up with those with longer legs. I found the fast pace helped me get more accomplished and that has been important to me. I always want to feel like I am getting everything done that has been given to me to do. At work I am usually in fast mode working diligently and as quickly as possible.

With that in mind I guess I walked a little too fast this past week which caused an old injury on the right side of my body to rear its ugly head. Needless to say I am working hard on persevering through the pain. Somehow I need to figure out a way to complete all my tasks and not walk too fast.

James 1:2-5 (NKJV)

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.

So as I write this blog I am asking for you to stand with me in seeking wisdom to navigate my way through this challenge. I am working on that “counting it all joy” portion of the scripture. I believe it is all about attitude and I trust God to get me through this mess and not leave me in it. In the mean time I will be waiting on the Lord to show me the best way to proceed and avoid further injury.

Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.


The Boot

img_1443After years of struggle with ankle and foot pain my daughter convinced me to try again to find a doctor who could help.  She gave me a list of possible doctors and I chose one that looked promising. That call resulted in a referral to another more specialized doctor with whom I made the appointment. After the first appointment I bought and wore a brace, for around two weeks but it caused more pain so I called the doctor back and we moved on to an MRI.  On Thursday I got the results and the decision was made to put me into boot for 30 days and pray that the immobilization and rest would heal the problems.

The boot comes with its own problems. It basically is a platform that you walk on which makes one leg longer than the other and can make you unbalanced. It also rocks as you move, if you push your heal down your toes will rock up and if you put your toes down you heal rocks up. This keeps you ankle from bending and allows your foot to rest while allowing you to walk. To combat the uneven walking I purchased an “evenup” sole to put under my other shoe. This helps to compensate and keep me more even and less likely to cause back, hip and knee problems.

Walking with the boot is a challenge. Going up steps it feels like it weighs a ton. Walking on uneven surfaces can cause your knee to go backwards and makes it feel like you could fall over. This unsteadiness reminds me of life in general. Sometimes I am unsure of myself and it feels like I am rocking back and forth on uneven ground as I walk really slow hoping not to fall. Sometimes my confidence is high and I feel that I am on solid flat ground where I go safely at a faster pace. However, God does not always give me a flat concrete path to walk on. Sometimes He gives me the rocky road with a rocking boot, just to see what I will do. Maybe it is to test me to see what I have learned from life and His word.

Having this boot has slowed me down more than the pain in my ankle did before. But going slow is not always a bad thing. It helps me to re-evaluate what I am doing and try to minimize my steps by thinking ahead more and making fewer trips. It also helps me to depend on the kindness of others which is important. Sometimes accepting help is more important that the pride of doing it yourself. It allows me to be on the other side of this scripture:

Acts 20:35 (NASB)

In everything I showed you that by working hard in this manner you must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, that He Himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’

By graciously receiving what others give to me I am allowing them to be blessed. This is a hard lesson to learn, but I am working on it. Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.

Life Facing Jesus

eyes-on-jesusIt has been a challenging week for me this week. Thankfully after having a doctor visit on Thursday I am on medication that seems to be helping my back problem. I am walking a little faster and my legs don’t feel so heavy. A pinched nerve is no fun but the medicine should reduce the swelling and help.

When it feels like my body is falling apart it becomes difficult to step away from the pain and problems and get a better perspective. But I was blessed this week to be able to step back and realize that I am a spirit that lives in this body, no matter how good or bad the body is feeling. I am not the body, I am the spirit. This has allowed me to better deal with the pain and frustration of the physical ailments that have tried to take over my whole life.

I am learning how to deal with not being able to do everything I want to do. I am learning how to slow down and be more careful in my physical choices. I have been trying for years to become more physically active, but it would seem every time I feel I am making progress I take two steps back with injuries. This could be depressing if I let it, but I choose to realize that this body is only a temporary home for my spirit. I will do my best to keep it as healthy as possible but when it finally gives out I will gladly give it up to spend the rest of my eternity with God.

I know that there are people who are struggling much more than I am and for them I offer a prayer that they could be able to step away from the pain and suffering and realize the pain, like everything else in this world, is temporary.

The Hymn “Turn your eyes upon Jesus” by Helen Howarth Lemmel really speaks to this.

O soul, are you weary and troubled?

No light in the darkness you see?

There’s light for a look at the Savior,

And life more abundant and free.

Turn your eyes upon Jesus

Look full in His wonderful face,

And the things of earth will grow strangely dim,

In the light of His glory and grace.

Oh that we could spend our every day in this frame of mind. For if we did this world would be a better place for all of us. Enjoy your week and I will be back next week with more.

September 11, 2001

img_0930-1This day has become a day of remembrance for everyone in the United States of America. We remember those who were killed by terrorists. We remember where we were that day and exactly what was going on when we heard the news.

I remember vividly that I was the only adult with around 7 students. We had started the day and Ashley had arrived a little late. Once she was in the room we were about to start the day with the pledge. Ashley told us there was a plane that flew into the World Trade Center in New York. She wanted to turn on the TV. I told her we would do opening exercises and then turn it on to see what was going on. When we turned it on and started to watch the second plane flew into a tower. One was bad enough but the second one put us all on edge. We then heard about the plane that went down in Pennsylvania.

I knew as the only adult around I had to keep my composure. This was very difficult. And after watching the TV for a while I could see it was having a nerve racking effect on the youngest student. I decided it would be better to get back to school work, but first we should go outside and try to run off some of the anxiety that everyone was feeling.

September 11, 2001 changed our world. It changed everything for our country and affected my family in many ways. No I was not at ground zero for any of the events. But I have family members who served in Iraq and Afghanistan and in the U.S. homeland in the military.  I have a family member who is now a fire fighter since coming out of the military.

After 9/11 the security and freedom we felt in this country was rocked to the core. We had to find a new way to make sense of the world. In my lifetime I thought all the wars were fought in other countries. I had never experienced terror like what 9/11 brought us.

A lot of us had to find our peace again. We had to re-evaluate where our hope came from. We had to re-evaluate our lives and our steps forward. One thing I learned through all of this is that God is still in control. No matter what happens, no matter where it happens God knows and will help us through it. Join me today in reflecting on what God has done through this tragedy.

Faith through the Good and the Bad

proverbs 3 5 6THE GOOD (one example)

Back in 1990 I had suffered with knee pain that caused me to have to use crutches for a while. I had a knee surgery early in the year but the pain did not seem to subside. It was difficult to move without pain. Doctors said they had thought it was a break in cartilage but when they got into the knee found it was shredded cartilage and all they could do was scrape it and hope that would help. Later on that year I had a salvation experience and realized that God had healed me. The knee pain was gone and has only reappeared for short periods of time due to extreme weather changes. The good is God healed my knee when I decided to give my life to Him and serve Him.

THE BAD (one example)

A few years back my son joined the National Guard and then the Army. He spent time in both Iraq and Afghanistan. For a mother this is difficult to think of your child being in harm’s way. It makes you tend to think of all the bad things that could happen. I remember the day that he called me and told me that he was going to be deployed to Iraq. Bob and I were working together at the time on a remodel project. Luckily the homeowners were not at home to see my distress because of the phone call. I experienced fear and uncertainty. As the shock began to wear off I began to pray. Prayer is my expression of faith in God that he can do things that I cannot. He can reach into areas that where I have no control. He can protect, heal and deliver. I prayed for safety through the dangerous times and that if something bad would happen, causing injury or death that our family would be able to handle it with faith. Though there were some injuries in the process he made it home in decent condition. His service to the country has ended on a positive note and he is employed in another dangerous job, firefighter. One thing I have learned through the bad is to not focus on the bad that can happen, focus on trusting God through it all and you will experience amazing maturing growth.

Proverbs 3:5-6 tell us to trust in the Lord with all our hearts. No matter what happens good or bad remember that turning to God is the right thing to do. I turn to Him in the good with thanksgiving in my heart. I turn to Him in the bad with pleadings for courage and protection and strength. I turn to him when nothing is going on good or bad because I understand that a close relationship with Him is what I need to make it through every day. When I miss that time with God my days are usually out of sorts and unsure. But when I have my time in prayer and remember all day long that God is with me, things work better. 

I challenge you today to remember that God is with you through the good and the bad. I will be back next week with more.


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